sleepy, rainy days and other myths...

I found this video...
Click here to see how much worse it can be at the office:) See staying at home with the kids is not that bad.

I think I mentioned that I'm a homeschooler. Since moving to Langley my kids have had the opportunity to go to a homeschool school one day a week. Today is the day! It's so fun for them and a great break for me. I should be running, cleaning and playing with my toddler BUT I'm here, typing. GUILT!! We have Bible study here tonight and the house looks like a bomb went off. Two bombs actually, one is 3 the other is 5.

I look at my poor youngest and think, "I was so much more fun when the boys were little." Maybe I only thought I was though. Luckily, your memory is the first thing to go.

My hubby is 35 on Friday. I know this is going to stress him out (VERY high achiever, married my opposite obviously) and the last thing I feel like doing is celebrating another birthday. Poor guy! I was up 2 lbs at my weigh in on Monday. Although, I'm still under goal weight, I've been quietly obsessing about this since. 2lbs is like a hundred, and what if I don't stop there! YIKES! See there I go...must reign the madness in. See how I can make everything all about me?! It's a gift really!

Oh and this is my all time fav SNL skit. If anyone know where I can get me some of this...
Click here

Okay now I really do have to go for a run! Enjoy whatever weather you're having.

Hello from the crazy house!

So many of my friends find blogging cathartic that I thought, "I must try this". I am desperately in need of finding my own voice these days.

I'm a 34 year old stay at home mom to 4 beautiful, healthy, energetic and very messy children. I love them dearly even on those days when I hide in the bathroom just to get a moment alone. I had so many ideas of myself as a mother. None of them included me yelling or crying on the phone to my husband in the middle of an endless day. Yikes, should I reveal this about myself the first time you "meet" me. Maybe not! I home school too. Did I mention that? It's wonderful and terrible all at the same time, much like parenting.
I love watching their eyes light up with new knowledge or watching my eleven year old son take his 3 year old sister by the hand and show her how to do something. I love that we can go to the ski hill all day every Tuesday. I hate feeling like I'm failing them, that they may not get to adulthood with all the skills and knowledge that they should have. What if I forget something? Or I don't know something? This is one of the reasons I love my super logical husband, who says things like. Ask the kids to help you! or you've never seen a 10 year old wearing diapers. He is wonderful and my rock!

Oh and I ramble, hence the title of my blog. I think maybe I've found my forum. The more rambling the better it seems and most likely noone will even read it so it's just for me:)

Well off to make Valentines cookies and candy with my 5 year old that I'm going to try not to eat. I'm on Weight Watchers week 1. (yes it had come to that!)

Leave a comment if you do come by:)