Tuesday, April 24, 2007

After a long hiatus...



A consistent blogger I am not! It's been a month, a month?! How does that happen?!
I have been feeling overwhelmed by my life this month and the things to fall off? Blogging. Cleaning. Reading. I didn't miss the cleaning, actually but the other two, very much.

Thoughts on weight....
I'm at my goal weight! YAY! I am actually below it and I'm running 5 - 6 times a day. It's great to be "me again". Anyone who's had a couple of kids will know exactly what I mean. I did suddenly find myself however, struggling with some old demons. I thought they were gone but there the were, just waiting for me:( I was feeling so great and then I started to compare, compare my clothes, my weight, my fitness, my life to those around me. Crazy people, people in magazines and in mall, people I don't even know. Why do I care? Is this something that I need to battle one last time as an adult at my proper weight. I'm not a model and I just need to get over myself. It doesn't even matter. Stupid that at 34 years old I still battle this. I do not want this for my daughters!

Our trip to Victoria....


My sil and I took the boys (and her girl) to Victoria last week. The museum has an exhibit on the Titanic. I was expecting it to be heartbreakingly sad and sort of like treading on some one's grave. I felt the need to be quiet and respectful as we entered the exhibit. BUT it wasn't like that at all. It was a hopeful place, full of testimonies of bravery and valor. The failure of this great piece of human technology was very evident but the personal stories were sad and hopeful at the same time. Men gave up their lives for their wives, sisters, and children. Crew members let passengers go first and people selflessly gave up their own lives for others. No one got to keep their "stuff" and most of it lies still at the bottom of that cold dark sea. Hmmm, kind of a good reminder don't you think.

My verse for today:
Unless the Lord builds the house, it's builders labor in vain. Unless the Lord watches over the city, the watchmen stand guard in vain. Psalm 127:1

It seems I need to be reminded daily that it's not by my own strength that all things need to come to be. When I begin to feel overwhelmed it's my cue that I'm carrying things I need to give to the Lord. Yet another thing that I'm struggling over and over to learn.

One last thought...
I read a blog yesterday that spoke to me. It was on the school shootings in Virginia. It helped me connect to a tragedy that seemed so far away. My prayers also are with those families.


1 comment:

Kimberly said...

Just stumbled across your blog for the first time today, would feel awfully unfriendly if I didn't say "Welcome Back!"