Thursday, December 6, 2007

This is the one I've been wondering how to write....

It's been a month, a whole month and I've been wondering how and if to write this but I feel I need to honor Callum's short life with a post.

Behind the fun posts about dogs, kids, coffee and shopping is a deep sadness. A grief that is not my own but I feel it all the same. C. who should today be sending out emails of all the crazy sleepless nights and milky sheets that come with the celebration of a new baby is sending instead pictures of her beautiful stillborn son. I should be reading of her labor and thinking back to my own. I want this to be the news I'm getting. I want to go back and make this month all a bad dream for her. Instead we are supporting her in her grief and lose and celebration of a life that ended before it really started. All her hopes and dreams for Callum will never be realized in this life because on October 31st she got the news that every pregnant mother secretly dreads. Her unborn son, the one she agonized over having, the one she aches to hold, had no heartbeat. He was delivered on November 1st. You can read her story in her own words here. Please do. C. is and amazing writer and Callum was so loved and wanted.

I believe that God holds Callum in His arms. That His heart aches as well for C. and her husband and children. I pray they can feel His peace.

7 comments:

Family Adventure said...

I had already read the post, and it is heartbreaking. There are no words.

Heidi

Tot's Mom said...

Sad indeed... I'll pop over and read what she has to say.

Margaret said...

absolutely heart breaking.

Kristen said...

I too believe that Callum is safe in God's arms, awaiting the day when he will be reunited with his family. I too pray that God will comfort and soothe C. and her lovely family. My heart is so broken for her.

Jen said...

I think you did a good job of writing about it, and that it was important to do. It reminds us all that life is fragile and should be appreciated every day.

Chey said...

I too have spent so much time crying for their family. Although my faith isn't as strong as either yours or Kristen's, I too believe that they will be together in flesh, in eternity.

Kellan said...

Hi Shay - this is so sad, isn't it? I can't even imagine, but I know it is every mother's worst nightmare and I think it was very kind of you to honor C with this beautiful tribute. I will keep them in my thoughts and prayers. Take care. Kellan